LEAVE ME IN SOLITUDE...

It's one of those days...
When nothing seems to be going right...
When every task i touch seems to be backfiring on me...
My head is spinning,my eyes are growing heavy...
I want to run away from it all...
My life..my family..my friends..
I just want to leave everything behind...
And be free...
The everyday things that usually comfort me by their presence seem to be stifling me...
I feel suffocated in this world of familiar people...
I feel like a caged bird,beating my wings against the bars of my cage...
But no one seems to notice...
I want to be set free...
To spread my wings and soar in the blue skies...
It's one of those days when all i want to do is be alone...
Want to be left in solitude...
But it is funny isn't it...?
How sly life can be...
When today all i want is my lonliness...
Throngs of people surround me...
Talking,questioning....involving me in their senseless chatter...
And then just yesterday...
When my lonliness was biting into me like frostbite...
I could find no one beside me...
To talk,to listen...
I wonder why life is always playing such tricks on us...
What we want is almost never what we get...
Though the object of our desire is often swinging in front of us at a tantalizing arms reach...
The distance to reach out and get it is always too far...

And no matter how hard we try...

It always seems to be just a mirage in the desert...
Right at,at this very moment all i want is to be alone...
To be the only human being on earth (Ok exaggeration!Maybe within a hundred yards is a better option)...
But alas...
My want is and will remain just another MIRAGE...
For this moment...

You must be wondering...
Why is this lass whining on and on about wanting to be alone and boring us...
And then if she wants it so badly why doesn't she just go get it...
How???
Well i can just go lock myself in my room for hours...
Or switch off my cell phone...
Or just go for a nice long walk along the beach...
But that is not the solitude i seek...
The emptiness around me that i search for...
I want complete solitude...
Where i don't need to think...
Or pretend...
Or act...
Solitude where i can just be me...
And not worry about the world...
And its mudane facts...
I want solitude...
Just solitude...
And nothing else...

DO YOU HEAR ME ??????????
I WANT SOLITUDE......
SO CAN ALL YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE JUST LET ME BE....
AND...
LEAVE ME IN SOLITUDE.....

(PS: Ok before all you bloggers out there, read this post of mine and think that i have gone completely wacky...let me just tell you this that i've just had a hard day and well, i just want a break from the hectic life i have been living...Is it such a big crime for a gal to ask to be left alone for sometime, once in a while? And no i haven't lost it...
I know i didn't make much sense in this post but well the words just came flowing out so i just let it flow without putting much thought to it...
Now after reading the post i'm wondering whether to publish it but...what the heck...
When i have put in so much time and effort into it,i might as well post it....
That's a different matter that i too cannot really understand what i've tried to convey through this post...HEHE
So if anyone out there has an inkling of what i'm trying to say, then please be kind enough to drop in and let me know too.....)