LOVE...RELATIONSHIPS...ARE THEY ALL FAKE???
There was a time when i thought love was forever.....
That if you fall in love with someone that person will be with you forever.....
God how wrong i was......
How misguided....
Today love is just another commodity,another part and parcel of life.
Love has lost its charm...It's lost it's exclusivity.....
Today everyone and anyone i know is in love....with love...
Love is not a feeling to be cherished.It's more of an accessory to be flaunted.
And after 18 years of living in the fantasy world of mine where love was a forever thing i got jolted into the real big bad world where we exist,where love is an on off thing... oneday you're in love the next day you're not...
Oh that doesn't mean i didn't have my share of so called "AFFAIRS"....I did,i mean not really affairs but more like boyfriends who well at that point of time seemed amazing and guys i couldn't do without.Well,time passed and i realised that umm..those guys were not that great and noways people i wanted to spend the rest of my life with.They were pretty much okay to be friends with but we had almost nothing in common except that both of us thought that we were in love with each other....Haha...Such amateurs na....Well i woke up to the fact that i wasn't that comfortable with being in love for timepass so well i broke up with all of them and decided it wasn't the right time for me to fall in love and decided to spend my teenage years single and happy....No strings attached.Gosh didn't i think wrong.........so so wrong.Have you ever seen that in life whenever you decide to do something you are faced with such a situation that you are forced to chuck your decisions and do the exact opposite of what you had formerly thought......
Well so i had decided,"No boyfriends for me as of now.Just friends and be happy."
I wish.....
Into my life walked _ _ _ _ _ _.....
Cute,smart,funny...Basically a nice guy....He was my college buddy....someone i knew okay okay,someone i spoke to on and off.But hey in the whole one year i knew him i never looked at him as boyfriend material.He existed,in the periphery of my life but all of a sudden he comes home to give me a book for like 10 minutes and my heart goes out to him?????
GO FIGURE.......
Well i had no option but listen to the stupid rantings of my heart and well.............
Here i am today....Heartbroken...Sad.....Depressed.....Still hopelessly in love with _ _ _ _ _ _ and well going insane coz at this moment i would love to hate him but in the process hate myself coz i can't seem to stay mad at him and am just falling in love with him a little more everyday......
Why why why???
Why _ _ _ _ _ _ after everything do,"I still love you........MORE THAN YESTERDAY BUT LESS THAN TOMORROW......?"